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for the better. We are still currently best friends even relationships, and their friendships were always
though her feelings are still the priority. So at least my priority. My world is theirs. My world revolves
I know now that people can change and we should around them. And that’s when I realised that their
stick with them no matter how hard it is for us. worlds had always been revolving but mine had
never moved. I was like the moon revolving around
When I was twelve, I started realising a lot of them which was revolving around the sun. The sun
things. I realised my family wasn’t so perfect after which is their priorities and I was never theirs. That’s
all. Throughout my primary school years, my dad’s when I learned the world doesn’t revolve around me.
business started to fail and we went into poverty. My
dad became stubborn and started to stop caring about
the family. I knew he was stressed and worried but I
lost my father figure. My mom became so small. She
never gave opinions and was very hard to talk to.
She would never listen to whatever advice we were
giving her. I knew she was stressed as well but I also
knew that their love was fading.

My brother grew up to be selfish and had
no money management whatsoever considering our
financial state. I knew it was because of the way he
was brought up and I also knew he wanted to stop
caring about the family as well.

Due to all that, I realised I had to keep my
family together. So I became the happy pill and the
core of the family. I gave them undivided attention
and everything I had. I had no time or brain capacity
to think about myself. On top of that, I found out
deep secrets about my family members that each of
them don’t know about.

Remember how I said that when I was twelve,
I realised a lot of things? Well this was one of them
- my dad was having an affair. I don’t remember
how I found out but it’s been the fifth year since I
knew. It was hard for me to take in then but now
but I have learned to accept it. Because what could I
have done? Expose him? Then my mom’s poor heart
which loves him so dearly will break. And so will
my family. And that is why I chose to be what I am
today.

After all these years, I realised that all the
feelings I had, everyone has them too. I started
to believe that my feelings weren’t so important
after all. For 16 years now, I had put everyone
before myself. Their feelings, their emotions, their

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